Friday, October 22, 2004

Tickle me this, tickle me that

Assalamualaikum

Jumat siang @Office. Puasa. Kantor sepi pada Jumatan. Gak ada kerjaan (eh ada sih tapi gw tidak bersedia bekerja on my 'lunch' break). So, ikut2an wida, I took the what-kind-of-a-girlfriend-are-you? test. It said that I'm a 'Laidback Lover', whatever that means. Anyways, here's the result:

Carefree and easy-going — that's your approach to love and life. Above all, you respect your boyfriend's beliefs, choices, and ideals, making you a trustworthy and supportive force in his decisions. Caring and thoughtful when it comes to your actions, you expect the same in return.

Even if you spend every waking moment together, you want to feel like you have freedom and room to breathe. For you, it's important that you maintain your individuality so that you can continue to bring something unique to the relationship. After all, you gotta be you.

Wassalamualaikum

One more..

Assalamualaikum

...

I broke into your house last night
And left a note at your bedside
I'm far too shy to speak to you at school
You leave me numb and I don't know why

I find it easier to sit and stare
Than push my limbs out towards you right
My heart is bursting in your perfect eyes
As blue as oceans and as pure as skies

I struggle for the words and then give up
My heads up with the birds on the t-hut
A little piece of mind that I know better
That the plain disgrace of all my letters

...

...beautiful lyrics by Gary Lightbody.

Wassalamualaikum

Thursday, October 21, 2004

How to be Dead

Assalamualaikum

Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened
and you never will if
You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours
til I'm sure what I want
But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me whats up I won't stop no way

Please keep your hands down
and stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no
why can't you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
from the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so lets not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said...
oh, my god

Please take it easy it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes
that you've listed so far
Oh baby let me explain something
it's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking the and not a lot else
It seems I've stepped over lines
you've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out
Dr. jekyll is wrestling hyde for my pride

A beautiful one from Snow Patrol..

Wassalamualaikum

Friday, October 15, 2004

www.handwritingwizard.com

Assalamualaikum

Here is your analysis. Ok, let’s hear my analysis.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. A grapho-what? If the inputted data was correct Anita has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Anita fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Anita has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. Hmm. The right side of the page represents the future and Anita seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Well maybe the ‘future’ got too damn close to the edge. Anita seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. Half true though. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin. Maybe I should write in Arabic.

Anita exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. In other word: hyperbolic, hehe.. She will be a good story teller. Oh I hope so. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Oh c’mon, I don’t shop THAT much. Anita allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. Like hell I am. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. U-huh, yeah, that’s me. In my other life. Anita has a vivid imagination. Look who's talking.

Something is incomplete in Anita's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. Somewhere between, say, post-high school and pre-college? This is very likely to relate to Anita's sexual needs. I should’ve known it’d come to this.

One way Anita punishes herself is self directed sarcasm. She is a very sarcastic person. Often this sarcasm and "sharp tongued" behavior is directed at herself. ..errmm..

Anita is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. She finds joy in anticipation and planning. I thought you said some crap about fearing the future and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. What else is new? Anita basically feels good about herself. In other word: a narcissist? She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. Amen to that. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach." A risk taker, I am not. She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. Have I told you I’m not a risk taker? A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

In reference to Anita's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. I knew there was something between me and CSI. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. Projects? Don’t you mean criminal cases? She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. Hmm..crime scene. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Anita slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Gimme a break. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. Seriously, gimme a brake, so I can slow down. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. Ahaha.. who doesn’t? She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. I really should’ve applied for criminology. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. This should make me the best bug-tester around. Anita can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. I also could sleep longer and eat more. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip. Can you climb mountains and eat hot dogs at the same time?

Anita is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. Ooh, mistery. She intentionally conceals things about herself. Not to mention my large pores. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past. I told you many times the yellowish stain on the bedsheet has nothing to do with me!

Anita will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. R-E-S-P-E-C-T! Anita believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride. You tell ‘em, sista’!

Anita uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. Kinda remind you of Star Trek’s Data. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Anita does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. Yeah, you better leave me alone. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. Oh, I will, I just wont say it. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Anita will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. Oh it’s okay, really, as long as those people mind their own business. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Keep this in mind, babe. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. I know that you know that I know that you know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. I’m quite tolerant considering that exception, arent I, dear? Anita is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. Yeah, show me how the mannequins look good in those clothes and I’m buying. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. Just don’t let the mannequins stand too far, I rarely wear glasses. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?" Is this best for me?

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. I don’t get to be told ‘average’ too often. Not literally, nor figuratively. According to the data input, Anita doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. Read more about her emotional expressiveness in the section on emotions and slant. Oh no, I had enough for now, thank you.


Wassalamualaikum

Thursday, October 14, 2004

Welcome Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum

Whew time does fly. Last month was my first anniversary working with Farmers & Co. and tmw is already the first day of fasting *gak nyambung*. Couldn’t taraweh at the mosque tonite though, cuz im not feeling really well with my coughing doubled with the impact of yesterday’s final celebration of my office’s so-called ‘sports week’ (being the ‘sports’ ranging from billyard, bowling, karambol to tarik tambang). Well at least we had futsal (when I wrote ‘we’, I meant the boys). No girl in my office can be arsed to ruin her nails and her hairdo. Nah, just kidding. We pulled the rope in tarik tambang yesterday. We really did, me n them girls. And today some parts of my right hand are red and a bit swollen. Not to mention my back and my left side. I walked all day today like a boy who just got circumcised (minus the sarong), hehe..

Hokay then. Eaten my dinner, taken my shower, done my taraweh and tonite’s Koran reading, am writing my blog, so.. what to do next, let’s see.. there’re still a couple episodes of Alias, 24 and CSI I havent had the time to watch. Oh and there’s Angels & Demons which I’ve only managed to go through page 26. Or maybe just go downstairs to find something to munch? I really wanna play with Armin but this darned cough (and Mutti) keeps me as faraway as possible, I’m not even allowed to wave hello to him from the door and its even about 3 meters away! Hiks.. God, please, please, take this cough away from me so I can play with armin and get through fasting month in peace.

Ya Allah, thank You for the opportunity to fast in this blessed month. May this month brings me and my family and Yoga and my friends many great blessings. And may this month be the opportunity to seek for Your forgiveness. Amiien.

Wassalamualaikum